It is hard to feel good in our skin when tv ads show things like plastic surgery, weight loss and other things that we need to do to " make ourselves more acceptable in society's eye's.
Society loves telling us what is wrong with us and never likes to tell us what is good about ourselves.
Truth of the matter:There is nothing wrong with us! I have heard this from a friend and she is right! Let's celebrate our uniqueness and our love towards each other instead of looking like someone that we can never strive to!
Let's show our inner beauty!
Tuesday, July 26, 2016
Friday, July 22, 2016
Cedar Point
It was an awesome time at Cedar Point! I got to go on all the rides! We also got a souvenir picture of us on the new ride! No time for ED. I even wore my bathing suit at the hotel with no worries and ordered what I wanted off the menu.
I am hoping this year will become the year that ED is no longer a presence in my life!
that could be done with transparency with my therapist and dealing with feelings head on! It is a great possibility for sure!
I am hoping this year will become the year that ED is no longer a presence in my life!
that could be done with transparency with my therapist and dealing with feelings head on! It is a great possibility for sure!
Thursday, June 30, 2016
Done
Yes I am done! Just feels weird now. I am used to get things done before class or study. Now I don't have too.
It was a very challenging class.
Yes ED had some input today. He was trying to tell me I didn't do enough on the exam for short answers. I answered them the best way I knew how.
I hope I did well enough to hold either an A,A- or at the very least a B+.
It was a very challenging class.
Yes ED had some input today. He was trying to tell me I didn't do enough on the exam for short answers. I answered them the best way I knew how.
I hope I did well enough to hold either an A,A- or at the very least a B+.
Monday, June 20, 2016
Home Stretch
With class winding down, I know I have a few more things to do before I get done with this class. I have yet to edit my paper and put citations in it, read the chapters, do presentation and study for final exam.
I am going to do the best I can and hope for the best. My health comes first. If I can get a B+/A- that would be great too.
The important thing is what did I learn in class?
I am going to do the best I can and hope for the best. My health comes first. If I can get a B+/A- that would be great too.
The important thing is what did I learn in class?
Friday, June 10, 2016
Midterm
I got my grade back from midterm it was an 80. I think I was hoping for better. Someone in my group pointed out that I took the midterm not the eating disorder. I tried my best and got a B for beautiful! I like that thought.
It is hard for me to get away from this A mentality. and my therapist told me that a B+ would be great. B+ I think that translates to enhanced beautiful.
I will try my best with this course and come out on top rather an A or a B as a final grade.
It is hard for me to get away from this A mentality. and my therapist told me that a B+ would be great. B+ I think that translates to enhanced beautiful.
I will try my best with this course and come out on top rather an A or a B as a final grade.
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Juggling act
Yesterday I started class. It is a fast moving class and I intend to keep up and do my best.
I will have to juggle these things:
Recovery
School
duties around the house
I will have to maintain my recovery by bringing things to eat to class and having something when I get home. Also take care of any doctor's appointments after the ER visit so I can make sure I am taken care of.
School:I will have to keep up with my readings and assignments. Also make sure I can get my paper done too. I want a great grade and also the experience of learning that comes with going to class.
Duties around the house: I need to make sure things are done and dinner is ready when my husband comes home from work. Also keeping up with my cats' feedings and litter maintenance can be tricky, if I become overwhelmed, I know I can ask Terry for some help with this. I know I don't have to do it all even though ED wants me to play "superwoman." I don't want another night in the ER so need to learn how to balance things in my life and to say no when I can't do things like going out on the weekend with a friend. This another part of the learning process outside of the classroom that I am still the struggling student, it will get there with progress!
I will have to juggle these things:
Recovery
School
duties around the house
I will have to maintain my recovery by bringing things to eat to class and having something when I get home. Also take care of any doctor's appointments after the ER visit so I can make sure I am taken care of.
School:I will have to keep up with my readings and assignments. Also make sure I can get my paper done too. I want a great grade and also the experience of learning that comes with going to class.
Duties around the house: I need to make sure things are done and dinner is ready when my husband comes home from work. Also keeping up with my cats' feedings and litter maintenance can be tricky, if I become overwhelmed, I know I can ask Terry for some help with this. I know I don't have to do it all even though ED wants me to play "superwoman." I don't want another night in the ER so need to learn how to balance things in my life and to say no when I can't do things like going out on the weekend with a friend. This another part of the learning process outside of the classroom that I am still the struggling student, it will get there with progress!
Sunday, March 20, 2016
When Parents have Problems
I have been reading Susan's Miller's When Parents Have Problems, I see that Pat was the problem parent. Instead of embracing who I was as an individual, she tried to stifle my individuality by comparing, belittling and laying guilt trips on me. She didn't see that I wanted to be me not a robot or a sheep following the herd.
In 10,11, and 12th grades, she used to tell me you will never write, or do anything good. She was projecting her insecurities about herself onto me. Or she fat shame me and compare me to thinner girls. If I wanted to listen to relaxing music, she would tell me that, "no one listens that your age." Instead of being happy that I wasn't into the drug scene, staying out late, or ending up pregnant, she complained about my music tastes. She was never happy with herself so she transferred those unhappy feelings on to me.
I did three things to break the cycle: I didn't bring children into the mix; I stopped the abuse cycle. I sought help for my eating disorder and didn't hide and pretend it didn't exist. I didn't take my hurt and anger out to others. I am trying to help others by showing love and compassion to others.
I believe that is we as humans ought to be doing is helping others within reasons and yet taking care to honor ourselves!
In 10,11, and 12th grades, she used to tell me you will never write, or do anything good. She was projecting her insecurities about herself onto me. Or she fat shame me and compare me to thinner girls. If I wanted to listen to relaxing music, she would tell me that, "no one listens that your age." Instead of being happy that I wasn't into the drug scene, staying out late, or ending up pregnant, she complained about my music tastes. She was never happy with herself so she transferred those unhappy feelings on to me.
I did three things to break the cycle: I didn't bring children into the mix; I stopped the abuse cycle. I sought help for my eating disorder and didn't hide and pretend it didn't exist. I didn't take my hurt and anger out to others. I am trying to help others by showing love and compassion to others.
I believe that is we as humans ought to be doing is helping others within reasons and yet taking care to honor ourselves!
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