How Disability Affected my Eating Disorder Treatment
I would have to say that my disability was never a
factor in my eating disorder treatment.
When I first started treatment, the disability wasn’t even an issue.
The first time that I went into therapy for the eating
disorder, we concentrated on the forces that brought me to the eating disorder
like the past abuse issues and my need for perfection. I never considered the
disability an issue then.
When I returned to therapy after getting my insurance back,
the disability was revealed. It wasn’t a factor on how my therapist treated me
as far as conquering the eating disorder demon.
When I approached Miriam, with the eating disorder coming
back strong, she made it her business to help me conquer the eating disorder.
Yes this time it is a lot harder to fight, not because of the disability but
because the eating disorder has more of a tenacious grip on me. We are working
at loosening its grip on me through processing and me working on trying to be
more kind to myself and not focus on the feeling that I have to be perfect. I
admit that it is a struggle due to thoughts of acting on behaviors that brought
me to her in the first place. I believe that with honesty, and hard work I will
overcome my struggle with the eating disorder mindset. Also with trusting her
and myself to do what is needed to combat these nasty thoughts.
Miriam does admire me on my
strength to overcome the eating disorder the first time and deal with the
disability at the same time. She thinks
that I am a strong person and if it did affect anything in the treatment, it
would be the fact that she knows I can do this because I endured the abuse from
my biological mother for not accepting me due to the disability. Miriam has
admiration for me for fighting the demon and overcoming obstacles in my
disability.
I will not be defeated with
either the eating disorder or the disability!
